I thought about calling this piece “the comeback” but that to me sounds a bit like I had I retired. Instead, I'm alerting you guys that I took a momentary leave of absence, and now I’m back with more of the great blog posts that you love.
Life happens sometimes, and it happens to the best of us. I entered MTSU bright eyed, a bit naive but with the same outshining personality that you may see now. I never procrastinated, school was at the top of my list of priorities, and I lived to be an A class student. As far as organized goes, I was the example that comes with the word when you google search it. I was never perfect, far from it; but I thought I was doing something right by striving to be. This persisted throughout my sophomore year but by my Junior year, the impressive attitude toward school diminished. Aside from my scholastic endeavors, I am a true Virgo at heart in that I practice control and strategic planning in all aspects of my life. It is both my saving grace and the trigger of my “get up”.
It is now senior year and I coach myself to get assignments done. Nothing happened, all is right with the world; or as right as it could be… but I found myself having to clock in and out. Striving for perfection in the first two years of my undergraduate journey has humbled me, folded me and tested me to my core. I burnt myself out 2 miles into my journey and now I am left struggling to find the strength and ambition left in me to continue the last one. Take it from someone who has done it all wrong: that is the most incorrect way that I can possibly think of to start another chapter of your life.
Sometimes it is necessary for your own mental health to Live and let Live. If I could do it again, I would learn to let go sometimes and limit the amount of pressure I place upon myself. As life after undergrad gets heavier on my mind, I am taking all precautions and mandatory steps to ensure the transition into the next chapter of life is as monotonous as possible.
I started this blog as a happy place for me to share my thoughts with the world and I’ll continue that. Sometimes real-world priorities suffocate the priority of allocating time to spend working on your dream. Work on t
hem anyway. First semester of senior year is near its end and this is me getting up.